Engine Forward

On my own engine forward.

Energy acquired caffeine and gaurana.

My mind letting me know that this war inside cannot go on much longer.

I have come undone,

Yet I am reaching further than I have ever been.

The whole of me fights to remain,

When I no longer know how to refrain.

Morality has grown strained.

I hold onto survival by straddling the line between right and wrong.

I fell down the rabbit hole.

A new world opened wide.

Excitement and wonder.

The darkest parts of myself I never knew before.

Deep inside I wonder how I will continue.

A narrow rope securing sanity.

My mind broken free.

Amazing how the sun is now seen.

Limitations no longer governed by rules without reason.

Leaps and bounds I am now discovering,

But convention is no longer an option.

Awakening. I have become the new me that I once was years before.

Hours lived. Sleep never realized.

Connections made.

Mystery and wonder.

I was given a gift, but my gift was only temporary.

Going back can never occur.

Moving forward. Passion replaces sleep.

Creation is my driving force.

Daring things without thought.

The further I push, the more I can see.

I still believe.

The caffeine has given birth to my new pulse.

Tears replaced with laughter.

There is no going back to my shelter.

To much of the world is left to create.

Gaurana giving me hope of just one more hour.

© 2013 Elizabeth Rockhill